I should strive to keep this me alive as after me i don’t know what will be. Making decisions out of haste is one thing I have now learnt not to do, fear and pain influence the way we make decisions and if one can learn to decide without influence of these two fear and pain, then am internal war is won. In the beginning of the year I had shingles i could have dived head first being driven by the pain and fear of death as it was the main subject at the clinic. I was being told if you don’t re start Arv’s you are going to be dead soon. This is the beginning of everything bad as you are now on stage 3.
I had to deal with my pain, recovery and the real reason I got the shingles in the first place, so, ARV absence in my blood is not the reason I got the shingles but emotional distress was, so seeing a Psychologist is the best step 1st. The driver of my vehicle is now reality and not fear and not pain. I did so many things trusting someone else and now, I trust the little I have learnt and feel it will keep on growing with experience and exposure to the truth on the human body mind and soul hence i will understand where the HIV and AIDS segment of my life fits in.So far therapy with the Psychologist is going very well and the end product i aim for is to undress the old me and wear a new me.
I am learning how magnificent our bodies are made, how when we do not comply to the basic principles of life we fall prey to illness. Life the greatest teacher, pain is the stamp on the certificate and rejecting fear is the graduation in to real living. I want to graduate for my own good hence for the good of others. Natural treatments for shingles made the difference that helped me see that no matter the said worst stage of aids i am said to be in I trust, some one to get me out, and that is the natural approach to reviving my body wholly, rather than partially and temporarily. Choose the slow road to recovery yet the accurate and complete recovery – never let fear and or pain drive your car, its a rough driver.
