Life, I mean real life here, has no short cuts, there is however a way that may be a short cut. Just may be, it can be and it also may not be, but having the slight chance of possibility makes all the difference. Meet some one who has shed the tears you are yet to shed, meet someone who has felt the pain what you are yet to feel, meet someone who has overcome what you are yet to overcome, meet someone who was once a fool and now wise, meet someone who was once sick and now healed, meet someone who was once sad now happy, meet someone who was once insane and now sane, meet someone who was once hungry and now full, meet someone who was once poor and now rich, meet someone who was once the devil’s advocate and now a Messenger of God, meet someone who was once single and now married, meet someone who was once married and now a widow, meet someone who once has parents and now an orphan, meet someone who once had a child and now the child is late, meet someone who was once a drug addict and rehabilitated, meet someone who was once, an alcoholic and now sober, meet someone who was once a womanizer and now a man, meet someone who was once a manniniser (my word) and now a woman, meet someone who was once a liar and now honest, meet someone who was once jealous, meet some one who was one insecure and now secure, meet someone who used to curse and now blesses, meet someone who was once dead and now alive, meet someone who was once a child and now an adult, meet someone who was once a President, meet someone who was once a prisoner and now free, meet someone who has been to the moon and back, meet someone who was unemployed and now employed, meet someone who was employed and now unemployed, meet some one who had love and lost it, meet someone who was searching for love and now found it, meet someone who was infertile and now fertile, meet some one who was physically abused, meet someone who has been emotionally abused, meet someone who has failed before, meet some one who has won before, meet some one who was young and now old, meet some one who has been soul searching, meet someone who hates, meet some one who loves, meet someone who generous, meet some one who is stingy, meet someone who was once homeless and now has a home, meet some one who was once rejected and now accepted, meet some one who plants, meets someone who harvests, meet some one who uproots trees, meet someone who conserves trees, meet some one who pollutes the environment, meet someone who conserves the environment, meet some one who was once carnivorous and now a vegetarian, meet someone who is peaceful, meet someone who is violent, meet a genocide survivor, meet someone who lives by democracy country and meet someone who is ruled by a dictators, meet someone who has been to world war 1 and world war 2, meet someone who has never been to war, meet some one who has murdered, meet someone who has saved a life, meet someone who was a cyclist, meet someone who own a car, meet some one who has owned chickens then goats and now cattle, meet someone who has had an amputation and one who has not, meet some one who used to walk and now crawls only, meet a woman who has had a still birth, meet a woman now has lost all her children to death, meet a woman who is loved, meet a man who is loved, meet some one who had sight and now does not, meet some one who did not have sight and now can see, meet someone who could not hear and now hears, meet someone who could hear and now deaf, meet some one who use to be afraid and now brave, meet some one who is thirsty, meet some one who has been inspired and meet someone who inspires, meet someone who wants to be heard – be that person who will listen, meet some one who is s dreamer, meet someone who could not read and now reads, meet some one who could not write and now writes, meet some one who is in a comma, meet someone who has had amnesia and now their memory is back, meet some one who survived a gun shot, meet some one whose parent were murdered in front of their eyes, meet some one who nearly lost love and retained it, meet some one with self-discipline, meet some one who has being stigmatized for being gay, meet someone who is bisexual, meet some one who is a slave descendent, meet someone who has lost self esteem, meet someone who ism assertive, meet some one with a guilt filled conscious, meet some one who has cancer, meet someone who lost breast due to cancer treatment, meet some one who used to be arrogant and now humble , meet someone who is cold and now warm, meet someone who had teeth and not they have none, meet someone who is a dwarf, meet some one who is a giant, meet some one who is undernourished, meet some one who is obese, meet some one who is nourished well, meet someone one who is an albino, meet some one who is a classed as a minority tribe, meet some one who was born with physical disabilities, meet some one who was dumb and now speaks, meet someone who speaks and who is dumb, meet someone who is an inventor, meet some one who is a Dr., meet some one who is a scientist, meet some one who is nurse, meet some one who is a pilot, meet some one who is a fireman/woman, meet some one who is a soldier, meet some one who scuba dives , meet some one who is a stunt, meet some one who is a mother, meet some one who is a father, meet someone who is s priest, meet some one who is a sprit medium, meet some one who has worked a top government secret agent, meet some one who harbors secrets, meet some one who is grieving, meet some one who is bottling their grief, meet some one who has been cheated on and meet some one who has cheated, meet some one who has been adopted, meet some one who has been abandoned during childhood, meet some one who has been neglected, meet some one someone who is ugly, meet some one who is beautiful, meet some one who is a teacher, meet some one who is a student, meet some one who has been voted in to power, meet some one who has lost elections, meet a snake catcher, meet a bee keeper, meet some one who has experienced racism, meet some one who is s racists, meet someone who has lost their identity, meet so one who is searching for a sense of belonging, meet some one who is energetic, meet some one who is lazy, meet some one who was once a thief and now asks, meet someone who has a vision, meet someone who has a mission to fulfill.

All the people we meet bring us close to who we really are, not what we know ourselves to be. The only way to know we are who we are is when we feel happy, and anything contrary to our true self induces sadness and hurt. Man was never made to resist the negative events of life; we were made to grow stronger by looking within us. We often meet with the people who bring out the best in out, that kind of people catapult us to our destiny. Those who have traveled the journey to warn us of the negative results they got do so only as privilege and may as an advice; we are the sole decision makers when it comes to our lives. We can steal ideas, but no one has ever had of an experience being stolen, it’s our soul’s class of education. The kind of people we become after crossing the river of life while we are at the banks as a lot about how we have responded to our feelings of sadness and the salty water that comes from our eyes.

Those who have gone thru all that they went thru, just like you say “If I knew this I would have made this or that decision”. The world we live in and beyond know no time yet man has created time and still to date man can never reverse his own creation. It is always easy to be the judge when you stand far as the observer yet when you become the active participant of the same incident you have judged only then will you see, we are all mortal men and we actually are all the same. One a man who goes beyond his standard being will review a thought and decide not as an observer but as one who will suffer consequences of his / her decision.

I have learnt today that being a judge of others only worsens my judgment on myself as I have raised the bar so high when I judged others hence for fair play I am to judge myself with the same level of judgment other wise the most unwelcome guest man has called “Guilt” crashes the doors of our souls and invites him / herself for an indefinite stay.

We always look for way to make it softer now ourselves. The one who is happy shows me its possible to be happy, the one who is sad as well tells me I am not alone. When we meet people who bring the best that I am, I shine, yet when I meet a situation that I can not change within me and obviously not in other we shrink back in to our souls shell. The shell is the hardest place for man to live both in this mortal world, immortal world and dream world.

It matters not how well a story is told, the true authentic experience remains to be a secret world that can only be entered into by the one who hold the spiritual key. That someone who has been there for me such as the one who is hungry shows me that there is some else who is even hungrier that I am. The one who is sick tells me the world need compassion love, care and support. Many choices that each one of us makes and we turn around and suffer for it, shows us that as that moment that was the best of judgment I had and normally in the judgment to fulfill greed, we go beyond our normal scope of interests to make sure we support ourselves in achieving the everything that will load our shoulders and turn on the salty pipes in our eyes. It’s always each as an after effect to say I should have or they should have or she/ he should have and that my friend is s fountain of stress.

I believe much of the time we try one other people’s shoes, we kind of fold our foot in half and say “ it’s easy”, yet in reality if we were in the same situation we would have done the same or even worse. The most important person we must never judge is ourselves; we lead ourselves down a slope with no brakes. We hammer ourselves so hard that the nail sinks in and can not be extracted. That nail is our inner being loosing identity and self-worth. No circumstance in our lives ever wants a loss of identity and self worth it does not matter how big we define it, it can never be big enough. Just get yourself off the hook and let go, you will fall but there are many cushions to set yourself free. We have the copy right that allows only us in to the section of our lives releasing our selves from bondage and prison, Sometimes a guy sitting behind bar is much free that the man who walks the streets of his / her township. Freedom lies within and as well imprisonment. Lies within when we are judged it has not much impact as when we judge ourselves. Man has history of being harsh to self unknowingly we are against it in others.
Many people speak to my about the HIV+ result that I have had for 10 years +, they are so hard on themselves that the eyes for light close and the sound of hope get faint. I can not say it is easy, because it is not and will never be easy to unlearn what ever we learn t think we are doing so for the preservation of our own lives. We have only our selves to get in to a situation and out and a situation. Man has super strength only when they have willpower. Never be harsh to self, kindness to self hold all the secrets of success that were bundled within at the time of our birth. We are all 9 nine months older if we were full term born babies and what ever moths we born at. So I am 38 on the 27th and add nine months I am also most thrifty nine, we have lived in our mothers bodies for 9 months hence our life begins at conception.

All that we hold in us is a blessing or an opportunity 100% of the time, even what we count as our curses or problems are yet a blessed that needs us to break the code. Man had lived life in two ways knowing there is s code to break, not knowing there is a code wrapped in our tears. We fail because we turn to discard all the negatives we go thru yet they are exactly what we asked for buy wrapped in our own tears. Crying with our eyes open and mind open will lead us to the pick up point of our success. No wonder why successful people are just a handful and known across the globe. Each one of use has a single duty to carry out and that duty is to be true to ourselves. In our honest and true state we are unbreakable.

“Truth however bitter can be accepted and woven in to a design for living. Dame Agatha Christie

Being tested for HIV and having a positive result, taking ARV’s for 8 years and coming off on my own teaches me the principle of understanding and not fearing.

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood” Marie Curie

My motto is this “When I feel down, I always know I am just leaning sideways”. A push from within will get me to a straight posture. Give yourself a pat on the back for standing up for your own good and the good of humanity. Judge not, so you can free your own soul, support accept other as they are, let it be them that find it within to change because only then can change effect, this also include me on myself.

“The doctor of the future will give no medicine, but will interest her or his patients in the care of the human frame, in a proper diet, and in the cause and prevention of disease.” Thomas Edison (1847 – 1931)

Thomas Edison is not here today to bear witness to his wise words, but we are are his witnesses with not doubt or reservations.

I could have been emotional and sick when I left ARV’s, but no but today as I write the most unfair thing that has ever happened to me was to be lead to believed that

1) HIV and AIDS was death tapping on my life daily.
2) I will die if I don’t take ARV.
3) I had been listening and waiting to see death come, yet the approach to the HIV test and the solution to the HIV + test was the killer itself unfortunately death did not even consent to this process.
4) My immune system was breaking down, now I know for a fact that what is needed is not ARV, it is the things that aids the body to fix itself as it does best. Natural healing, natural and conscious attitude to life and self are still the hallmarks to my well being today.

The problem I see is that human being are so smart that they even try to do something that will be done by the body with the speed of light yet the body itself goes through a process which cannot be read as 1 then 5
Then you get to 10. It must read 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. The way modern medicine does is its 1 then 5 and suddenly you are at 10, so skipping the other numbers is the missing link to our bodies.

A reporter called on Edison to interview him about a substitute for lead in the manufacture of storage batteries that the scientist was seeking. Edison informed the man that he had made 20,000 experiments but none had worked. “Aren’t you discouraged by all this waste of effort?” the reporter asked. Edison: “Waste! There’s nothing wasted. I have discovered 20,000 things that won’t work. Thomas Edison (1847 – 1931)

I kind of feel the same way about the near death expereince of 8 years intoxicating myself with ARV’s, and then going around the world to find the solution whilist I continue the intoxification process with ARV’s. It sounds foolish doesn’t it, but I was aready 5 foot down the grave when I realised there one more foot to go to get burried 6 feet under the ground. If your ask me, I find it very surprising that I never found out the HIV Dissidents as I started ARV’s in 2001. It was so for a purpose, today, I just know what the alterneative to life is, TRUSTING someone else with my own breadth, expecting someone else to keep the warmth in my blood while I freeze it voluntarily with toxic drugs. I turned around to dance to the music when I was asked to get wheeel chair quotations, I got three, and I relaised that I was giving in and giving up. My core being never gives up, check my history. At the entrance of my house, there is a wheel chair ramp that my husband Edison got done.

“Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up”.Thomas Edison (1847 – 1931)

I weep inside dearly today when I see the pure health benefits of staying away from all forms of modern medicine and sticking to what is human compatible. I am now openly acknowledging that I use Sutherlandia OPC as an alternative to arv yet its effects are emplowering and body building.

“Non-violence leads to the highest ethics, which is the goal of all evolution. Until we stop harming all other living beings, we are still savages”. Thomas Edison (1847 – 1931)

I would say to all people who want to heal to STOP looking for themselves elsewhere. The doctor cannot do better than the body. I learnt from others, the internet and my own body. This has been life saving and if shared may be you will be shocked as I was, that we lose life only because we expect someone else to live it for us. I am now living my own life in the terms of life not any ones but my terms.

“If I had not had so much ambition and had not tried to do so many things I probably would have been happier, but less useful”. Thomas Edison (1847 – 1931)

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Are we accounting African deaths from ARVs specifically as ARV INDUCED deaths or do we bundle it up as AIDS deaths? Was accounting ever done for African deaths during the slave trade? Who will account for the ARV deaths? Who will account for the deaths brought on by barking at the wrong tree via the HIV and AIDS dogma interventions? It’s as if accounting for those deaths is purposely ignored, no accounting and the blame is on the little four letters A.I.D.S, and so no one can be nailed for it.

You may call me names, anything convenient for you, but I surely do smell a rat. If I were an African leader, my African language would be used to educate my children and all other languages would be a second language. What is now said to be the international language can be changed. There are other languages that we can all learn. I think an international language would be sign language and that would be fair to all, there is no memorable pain in its use.

Whether one knows a language or not, there is always communication between two people via their human spirit, to communicate is love, when you genuinely want to express yourself that is a language that has no barrier and that should be the international language. We are now learning a new language, one that is quite ‘scientific’ and means no more than hopelessness in its intent. Everything that I see today, in the media, in society and our cultural practices, is focused on HIV and Aids; it is focused on portraying sadness, a demolishing of hope and even the thought of hope. Dramas have lost the cultural aspect, but mainly portray, exactly what we do not want. Dramas are in fact enticing, the children, the youth and adults… to try out all other things; things that they may have never heard off until they saw the drama, song, or film. The catch is funding, if the theme is HIV and Aids and a devastated person, then you’re on, you get the bucks. There are no plays that do not portray some guilt consciousness, regret, pain, blame and the list goes on and on. I want to see hope, as it is the only way we can enter the door as tiny as a needle hole. I have gone through that hole, only because of my strength and courage; otherwise I am just like the others who did not enter through the needle hole. Let’s make many copies of those of us, who got through the needle hole. We can only do this by walking backwards to pick up our culture, we all need the modern life but not at the expense of our lives. Slavery was involuntary, ARVs/ HAART are involuntary. Is there anything that we can do that is voluntary? Yes there is. Our culture is voluntary; even when we forget our culture; our dreams will still remind us of how we used to thrive, so much that we were the preferred labour to build the New World. This is the strength that is imbedded within our souls, being who we really are, not what we have become due to circumstance, geographical location, economy and time.

‘God has given man the eye of investigation by which he may see and recognize truth. He has endowed man with ears that he may hear the message of reality and conferred upon him the gift of reason by which he may discover things for himself. This is his endowment and equipment for the investigation of reality. Man is not intended to see through the eyes of another, hear through another’s ears nor comprehend with another’s brain. Each human creature has individual endowment, power and responsibility in the creative plan of God. Therefore depend upon your own reason and judgment and adhere to the outcome of your own investigation; otherwise you will be utterly submerged in the sea of ignorance and deprived of all the bounties of God.’
(‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Foundations of World Unity, p. 75)

If we Africans don’t re-visit our history, then our existence will always be on the line, with causalities on our side – 100% of the time. We believe all and everything that comes from the western world, and we choose to disbelieve what we have known to work, for century’s encrypted in our blood. Yet at some point of the slave trade, palm oil that was shipped overseas from Africa was of much more value than a slave. The way we were packed did not reduce the risks of dying during the 8- 10 weeks on sea voyage. Now, as wealthy as our continent is, who has interest in saving us? Do you think the western world enjoy having to buy the raw materials for their industries from Africa? No they don’t! How can we think AFRICA can be saved by drugs orchestrated by the western world?

The western world knows our strengths and abilities, so they know exactly how to slow our progress down to zero. The western world also knows our weakest point. They know that we are so submissive, that even without a proper trial we do not challenge when we are told ‘you are guilty’, we don’t ask ‘guilty of what your honour?’, we just say ‘I plead guilty for whatever they say I have done, your honour’.

Africans think again!

Interestingly there were also Africans who were advancing slavery in a different way. These Africans were advancing slavery by way of advocating that Africans should be adopting the western life style. Does this sound different today? Has anything changed? I don’t think so, because pharmaceuticals companies are generously giving Africa a tiny part of their profits, to be used in what is called ‘fighting HIV and AIDS’. But in actual fact they are once again only advancing their own interests and Africa once again becomes a land of profit with a crocodile smile.

There was no consideration for African human life when we were packed in the slave ship in the sea through the so-called ‘Middle Passage (Atlantic Crossing)’ for six to ten weeks unclothed, underfed, and forced to lie on hard planking in unhygienic conditions, many failed to survive the ‘Transatlantic Voyage’. After the journey, we would then be fattened and sold. In whose interest do you think the slave trade took place? It was for profit! They wanted to make money! Now why would cupid shoot an arrow from a pharmaceutical company straight into Africa for love? Answer yourself. I have. Pharmaceutical drugs, some of which have failed in the west, like AZT – a failed cancer medicine in western countries – that is now used on us ululating Africans. The marketing of these drugs are often driven with the powerful backing of some of our fellow Africans who know the truth about HIV and AIDS, but fellow Africans who would rather fill their bank accounts and have luxurious life styles because in the pharmaceutical context HIV and Aids is the biggest opportunity to hit the market, with their best customer being Africa. I don’t think even recession affected the HIV Medicines sector, I doubt it. The pharmaceutical intervention (HAART) is laboratory made, so it’s foreign to the body yet the true intervention is naturally made, nutrition is compatible to the body. True intervention would be the correct diet and right mental attitude. But all of these correct interventions are demolished by the pharmaceutical interventions. They are demolishing it with propaganda focused on escalating fear and boosting the use of pharmaceutical drugs.

‘Your journey has moulded you for your greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don’t think that you’ve lost time. There is no short-cutting to life. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.’ – Asha Tyson.

The immune systems are breaking down due to lack of the core nutritious foods. Some of the reasons for that would include: poverty, mass production of foods, preservatives, processing of food, GMO’S, undermining the African Herbs that have been used for many centuries, etc. A tree with dead roots and a living stem is still a dead tree and so applicable to African lost cultural practices and foods. For Africans to choose other nations cultural practices has been a deliberate choice for self destruction. Only Africans can restore what once made us strong. African genes have the memories encrypted in the bodies of every African. All we need to do is retract urgently on our food and disease management. Our cultural practices and foods are our roots and they include disease prevention and management, proper food supply and natural food preservation, eating of roots and wild fruits, etc. In the case of achieving a situation of zero deaths from HIV and Aids, as many countries have such an objective – will be to go back to our core African roots, and that will deliver to us this victory. Clearing away all the bushes for beautiful unhealthy offices and homes is the root cause of ill health and starvation. Civilization has indeed come with a price for all human kind.

The intention of the slave trade was never to be of benefit to the ‘African Slave’ – who in this case was the merchandise and now the pumping up of Africa with ARVs and vaccines is still not for the benefit of Africa. If we don’t steer the wheels of change now, our children will enjoy the shortest life span ever recorded in human history.

The use of ARVs here in Africa is equivalent in many respects to the slave trade because now even knowledgeable Africans just like the African slave traders swear an oath on this HIV and Aids management of HAART and condoms to be the best way to address an compromised immune system.

The ‘knowledge’ given to us on the ‘facts’ of ARVs and condom use can be beaten by rather focusing on the outcome of food of indigenous origin – and such practices can educate us into developing a better quality of life. This indigenous knowledge will also have to re-invent the wheel where Africans used to eat from the ground and not from a shop as we now tend to do. The high numbers of poverty in Africa is caused by lack of agricultural activities, because we live lives not of our own design. We do have some places that are desert but even there the survival rate was high. We were designed as a strong people. Once we built the western world with our own hands and yet now we are the weakest and most fragile of nations. Why? The birth of this is lost roots; and since we lost our roots, we fall for anything and everything. I once also lost my roots, that is why I took ARVs for 8 years and during that time I used all the resources I had to search for a solution outside, not realising that I had it all in me and around me, I just had to go back to our African cultural roots. Roots are the tree. Termites ate most of the roots of my guava tree, but one root remained and so I maintained the tree with that one root; hoping that there can be more roots coming out. It has worked, the tree is still there but its growth is slower. Finding our roots will not happen overnight, it will probably be the same slow process that the tree used to recover, but what matters is to get in motion as individual Africans to revive our roots. Our roots were all good at one stage; that is why we were the preferred manpower to be enslaved from afar.

In the slave trade, at one time it was believed that the European slave traders deliberately made their purchases of slaves among different African groups so as to prevent effective communication among the African slaves they purchased. Recent studies, however, have suggested that most ships probably carried a fair number of Africans who could mutually understand each other. Certainly censuses in the Caribbean islands with self-declared origins of Africans suggest that a sizable minority of workers in a given plantation could communicate with each other in their native languages. Thus we are all interlinked and borders are country laws not language barriers. These introduced barriers were probably also introduced intentionally, with the aim of us forgetting our roots.

A question; where did the dead bodies of those who were found to be dead on the slave ship go? From what I saw on the picture from ‘The Bettmann Archives’, the human merchandise was laid in such a way that it was survival of the fittest. The way in which they have disposed OF DEAD bodies, if you answer fairly, shows us that as Africans we have never been of any value, unless we value ourselves. My value goes like this: As a human being I am worth far more than the most expensive raw material that Africa could have or has had. Value yourself too; stop taking the ravaging ARVs to be absorbed into your blood stream. Educate yourself in the correct life transforming principles of nourishment. As Africans we are being told that HIV/AIDS would harm our health. We do not know if it is true. Chances are that the damage that can be observed in the health of Africans is probably becoming more active with the use of ARVs. These drugs were probably designed in test tube conditions. Chances are that in a nourished body the threat of HIV/AIDS damage would probably enjoy no dignity whatsoever, nor would it be able to make any impact on our health. AIDS were probably not designed for the strong bodies of healthy Africans who know their roots, so try to find your roots to regain your strength. Our souls know our origin, dig deep inside you for what is right as an African man, woman or child. The sequence is still the same as it was in slavery; it was man, and woman and children who were all getting exposed to devastating conditions. When slavery was abolished governments compensated the owners of the slaves, now think; do we still need to follow someone else or do we rather stick to our roots? Decisions in life are sometimes made not by exercising the most popular choices, but are made only because we know, what is at stake if we would make a different choice. Anger and blame are not building blocks, but love and forgiveness are needed to rebuild our African culture and our heritage.

When you make you decision, take care to make the correct choice. Choose only one! HAART or HEART. Be careful to make the correct choice and make sure that the choice that you have made is the one that is supposed to pump the blood in your body, and that you would need no heart transplant after you have made your choice.

“Don’t compromise yourself; you are all you’ve got”.
Janis Joplin

Some slaves were chained with chains in their hands and feet but their hearts were unchained and free, today we are unchained in the hands and feet but are chained in the heart and so we are ‘Slaves of Modern Medicine’ unless we make a different choice.

What is in the bottle or package is the toxic seeds aimed at my
plantation, which is my body. When we plant, we check out the soil
against what is to be planted carrots need soft loamy soil for the
root to penetrate down, if you plant them in clay soil you will
harvest nothing. As well as you plant, and add chemicals or pesticides
and so on, the soil dies. Here I really mean soil, it dies, it just
becomes dead soil and produces nothing. For this soil to start
producing it will have to be fed with leaves, dry grass, and for me, I
also take the Aloe Vera green pealed leaves and lay them in the soil
to rot after I have eaten only the white part. This very soil will be
revived. With out these fertilizers the soil is barren, but when you
add fertilizer it becomes fertile soil once again.

When we take the same scenario to our bodies, at the time when we
trust pharmaceutical medication and use it as prescribed we are making
our soil, which is out body, barren (unproductive, unfruitful: barren
land). Our body will not produce any healing properties for itself
because we have killed that ability, which by the way is a natural
process. The body never kills itself, it makes all efforts to heal
itself, and without the support it needs it will eventually die. When
I took ARV medication, topping it up with other medicines for the
complaints created by taking ARV, I was adding pesticides and
chemicals to my body, thus killing it. The crops I grow there, which
are the health benefits I am trying to achieve with the ARV, will not
even germinate. Trusting pharmaceuticals made me go again and get even
stronger pesticides and chemicals to try and resolve the problem of
seeds not germinating. That is just extinguishing fire with petrol. No
matter how much petrol I poured the fire grew and is reignited even
when there was one last spark to put out. ARV/HAART and other toxic
medications are the same.

My soil, my body, cannot generate any healing for me against any
opportunist infection that I may be told I have, because already the
ARV I am on has done a good job of ripping my soil its fertile
properties. Adding other drugs to deal with the opportunistic
infections as they are called is further ripping from my soil its
ability to produce the healing I am eagerly trying to achieve with the
drugs. What I am saying here is true and 100% a real life experience
of my own. To my soil there was ARV the first group, then I resolved
the first group’s failures with the second group, then second group’s
failures I addressed with the third group, the third group’s failures
with the fourth group.

ARVs I was on:

Check our HIV/AIDS Skeptism

First set of ARV I took for 6 weeks (mid-August 2001)

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Sustiva_1615.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Zerit_1588.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Videx_1585.shtml

Second set from mid-August 2001 until February 2008

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Viramune_1616.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Combivir_1083.shtml

Third set, February 2008 to October 16 2008

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Viramune_1616.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Epivir_1579.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Viread_1587.shtml

Fourth set, October 16 2008 to June 16 2009

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Viramune_1616.shtml

http://www.aidsmeds.com/archive/Truvada_1584.shtml

When the fourth group failed, it was now clear that what I was adding
to my soil was of no benefit.

It is a mistake for anyone to think he has lived too long in his old,
unsatisfactory ways to make the great change. If you switch on the
light in a dark room, it makes no difference how long it was dark
because the light will still shine. Be teachable. That is the whole
secret.
- Vernon Howard, 1918-1992, American Author and Spiritual Teacher

I came to a conclusion to finally stop adding pesticides and chemicals
to my soil. I decided to do something completely new, enter the cave I
feared most, stop ARV Treatment.

The cave you most fear to enter contains the greatest treasure.
—Joseph Campbell

There are fears in this cave, and the huge one in HIV and AIDS is you
cannot get out of the cave alive. Little did I know that in the very
cave I fear lies my life. I stopped adding pesticides and chemicals to
my soil that was no longer germinating seeds. I completely stopped
every kind of medication, including headache tablets. All I needed was
to bring my soil back from being barren to being fertile. I applied
the natural foods, natural herbs, and natural elements such as
sunlight, water, air, wet soil contact with my skin, rest, sex,
laughter, physical activity and others to b able to access the
treasures in the cave. All these have never been made by our hands,
but at our hands these are destroyed by our unfriendly environmental
practices.

If you’re going to be passionate about something, be passionate about
learning. If you’re going to fight something, fight for those in need.
If you’re going to question something, question authority. If you’re
going to lose something, lose your inhibitions. If you’re going to
gain something, gain respect and confidence. And if you’re going to
hate something, hate the false idea that you are not capable of your
dreams.
—Daniel Golston

In my soil now lies a ground that is fertile, very fertile. Fertilize
your soil. Your body is your soil. The more chemicals and pesticides
you add to get the health your want, the more destruction to the soil
you shall achieve.

I am confident when I tell you that without ARV and all other pills,
my soil is replenished naturally, continually, and the harvest is
beautiful, tasty. When you pick something that you want to eat from my
body, be sure that what you have picked is a good quality harvest. A
peach that looks and tastes like a peach.

Enjoy the harvest, tomorrow you may give me the opportunity to harvest
from your soil. Your soil, your life, what you plant you shall
harvest. Stop adding to your soil chemicals and pesticides that make
it barren. We all enjoy fertile soil. Barren soil is sick and never
gets better (a body that has nothing germinating), and fertile soil is
soil that makes itself better and germinates and produces the expected
harvest. Be the fertile soil.

The pressure is so huge, due to external attemps to brain wash me, external fears hence it left me with huge pressure of a circling mind. Out of this incident, I learnt first hand that the mind has great impact on the body and the mind has power over disease no matter the diagnosis. I knew what I wanted, I know what works for me, I know what has also failed for me. No one, not even the best doctor in the whole world, can know beyond me what is best for me, it’s impossible. I have a relationship with my body, clear communication signals which are never disrupted nor false, the only false alarm is induced man, not from within me and not from my body. I built tall wall of resistance but it was easily broken down as I only had one legged stool to stand on and that made my balance very fragile. The one legged stool is my eye witness that morden medicines has fatal failures.

I, even under the greatest professional coession stood on that one leg as it was enough to get me through. I knew the cause of the circumstance at hand and taking ARV and going through HIV Viral load tests was not even light years close to the solution. There were gaps which if filled by the ARV and brain washing will only aid growth of the core problem. Mentally I fell off the boat during the coesion stages, and gained my balance only when I had to make agreements. I travelled that road before, I knew the curves , I knew the short cuts and I knew all the pot holes hence that knowlege tipped the scale of facts over to my side. ” This is 0.77 of white blood cells and its death no matter how you feel Onnie”. Yes, I said, and there is a way out, probabely I am too positive to think of failure when eveyone knows my failure. I seem to only think, if its wrong fix it and it will be fixed and if it’s not broken don’t temper or fiddle with it, let it be.

Let’s see, now, if indeed I wanted to heal and I went on arv, hey, how much help would I need from my White blood cellss to deal with the toxicity given that i am due for the second line of ARV. ” It has been taught many times that the second line is more toxic that the first line of ARV’s, so if I neally kicked the bucket from 1st line arv sets that were changed 4 times by the way, is it not common sence that i will perish with the second line level toxicity of arv’s. ” No they said, these days the doctors are more trained, and the drugs are more gentler”. I replied “its many of the same drugs from the past just made in to many different combinations. Its only a mix and match with a dash of new styles with the same venom effect. It’s not easy to want to help someone who is like me who is seemingly uncoorperative, yet in reality I am the most coorperative as I am only negotiating the terms of achieving a healthy body. HIV is a smoke, which makes you cough, sneeze, choke, and run tears in the eyes and it just impairs judgement. In the situation of a heavily smoked room you only have one thing in the mind, to reach the open air, even if you break through a window from floor one hundered you still think its better to crush your head than to suffocate, so is the great rush to get us on arv therapy. Thereafter who cares, it matters not if after ARV’S initiation you walk on sharp razer blades, or all the fat moves to one section of the body and you look like a tooth pick, it matters not if you get bone marrow suppression not from their known HI virus but from the known side effects of the arv’s and the list if too long, it can only be shorted by saying the introction of the drugs for me personally goes against the principles of medicines or science in my own simple undertanding ” that is to say the drug can never be of more life threatening effect than the disease being treated”. Its common sence, if we did not want better health we would always just ignore ourselves, including ignoring the pain – but every human no matter how stubborn or strong they are they will submit to pain and do that which they would normally not do just to eleviate pain.

Pain induces fear of death instantly, for me anyway, hence we are more causious to act consistatly all the time to silence the pain, pretty much like a screeming baby , you will sing a lullaby, give a bottle or carry on your back just to make them happy and quit crying. My result and the outcome I am getting today, only tells me one thing, ” The dissidents of HIV and AIDS are on to something that is a reallity and the mainstream is only covering what they have caused and or ignored”. For this very reason I am now convinced more that I was before that the smell of a rat in the mainstream is actually a dead rat and I MUST MOVE the furniture and i will find it, just for disposal.

I feel so good with the evidence based confidence beyond reasoanable doubt that the rubble that had covvered me deep under the gound of fear, hunger, stress, poverty will alleviate itself and the end result will be a living example of what “The Controversy is all about “Paul Lineback – Counselling Pyshologist, Eastern Oregon State College said “Protecting and promoting the unproven HIV hypothesis as a fact is inducing unnecessary stress, probable emotional harm and may be even pschological murder” (Sunday Times London 3 April 1994). This statement for a moment I felt I was in the slaughter house after getting the 0.77 white blood cell result due to my HIV test result – all the wickedest and weakening words were spoken unto me, this was harder than the first time I encountered the enrollment of arv’s. The first time I was empty and afraid, this time I am informed, assertive, experienced and unshakeable. This is a difference I wsih we could all have in the world with regard to the many so called ‘deadly’ chronic disease that we get diagnosed with. It is only our inner strength that can help us stand on that one legged stool, it’s a challenge without accumulated knowledge and love not to give in to the mainstream. This statement quoted above of Paul Lineback was made in 1994 , other statements at Virus Myth Website as early as 1992, This is the only part which I term makes me angry because i was tested in 2001, some before me and died some after me and died and i neally died 2008 from toxicity of arv’s and still the mainstream keeps such statements under the carpet, it’s a disgrace even if it’s done so for a profit, what a disgrace, what a traggedy the human is doing to the other human.

In Africa especially talking of my country Botswana it is made know point blank even today that HIV = AIDS yet as Professor Peter Duesberg of Molecular Biology University of Berkely put it ” They have hyped up HIV in to this super rapist but in reality the damn thing can hardly get an errection”. Times London 11 May 1992. HIV has celebrity status for something it’s not aware of nor is capable of doing , let alone it being just an invisible virus.

Dr. Roberto Giraldo, Specialist in Internal Medicine, Infectious and Tropical Disease, New York said “HIV tests are meaningless. A person can react positive even though he or she is not infected with HIV. The tests are interpreted differently in different countries, which means that a person who is positive in Africa (or Thailand) can be negative when tested in Australia. Thereis no justification for the fact that most people have not been informed about the serious inaccuracy of the tests. The error has catastrophic repercussions on thousands of people.Since people are reacting positive on tests that are not specific to HIV, let’s please stop labeling them ‘HIV positive’. Worse still, I add, let’s also stop enrolling them on scrippling drugs, they scripple the person and their socio economic status – it’s a drug far worse than the disease itself.

My freedom is owed to those who gave me the extra three legs to make my stool a four legged stool. I had no way of getting out of this one with a stable mind. I have many other pyschological impairements and working against the mainstream on resisting my white blood cell result of 0.77 as a death sign was true maddening experience. To all those who donated $5 dollars to Celia Faber’s effort to balance the meals gave me the three legs for my balance. My knowledge was worthless without the proper balancing of nutrition. Dr Marc Swanepoel of Sutherlandia OPC has kept consistant support with his miracle herb Sutherlandia OPC and I think full credit goes to his product as the medical proffessionals said ” its impossible for you to be still looking healthy and being hiv positive with a 0.77 white cell count, you should be bed ridden” they shaked their heads and I noded mine saying “Yes its possible, you see it you don’t hear it”. Now, deep in me, the deepest thought that I have tells me it’s possible to make a comeback from any point given the correct tools the body will do it by itself with out the toxicity of arv or chemotherapy and all other fashion drugs of todays pharmaceutical companies. My life is of great value to me, and I know I am classifed as ignorant and in denial yet the classification should be left to me as in death the greatest looser is the one who holds the breadth, and I am aware of what is at stake hence my decision to stick to nature and my bodys own ability to rescue itself as it knows well indavance before me that it’s in danger, all I must do is to give it the aids it needs to complete the urgent restoration task.

I have today in my heart, mind and hand have the evidence to the a statement made by Dr. Ralph Moss Author of The Cancer Industry ” The paradigm that was laid down for how to milk the cancer problem is basically the same paradigm which is being followed to milk the AIDS problem. (Penthhouse Dec 1995).

Though, one would say to me ” The ‘ARV’s are free in your country Onnie, why do you want to die from AIDS” I say ” My death as a free spirit is much peaceful than my Death in an ARV imprisioned body. Johnny Nash’s song of ” I can see clearely now the rain is gone” he mentions ” here is the rainbow that I have been praying for” and for me that rainbow is just to know within me deep in side that with no doubt and no convition I have made a life saving decison to STOP arv when I did. It was a personal choice contrary to what my doctors recomended and still recommend, I stand by it and live for it. The polished statistics by W.H.O show the lack of interest in the well being of people, the numbers are great though not true but in any case what is this big body doing about it. I believe it’s posible to save one life at a time and in the end it will be many lives saved. It’s the how and why that they cant get to by choice not to. Dr Dave Rasnick – Biochemist, Visiting Scientist University of California at Berkely said ” In defending the purchased consensus, HIV researchers use statistical methodologies shown by their inventors to be invalid and conduct experiments without any controls. They take causes for effects, correlations for causations and constants for variables. Most important thay haven’t stopped AIDS. What they have done successfully is instilled fear in to human sexual relations – an amorphous fear which most AIDS professionals as well as journalists argue has been valuable”.
(Talk Napoli Italy April 2001)

The greatest freedom in this world is to know that we are not bound by anything especially the thingS that are invisible as they bind us the most – binding the real person behind the body. Releaving ourselves of the binding that HIV and AIDS has on us is true freedom. We can not fly if we don’t spread our wings and the only wings we humans have are “peace of mind, spread them”. To all my friends of ARV’s I love and I respect your choice, we do what we have to do to preserve life, and our choices are easy as we are able to live up to them and to own up to them. I am the last person to judge anyone and can be the first person to be judged.

I had to deal with my pain, recovery and the real reason I got the shingles in the first place, so, ARV absence in my blood is not the reason I got the shingles but emotional distress was, so seeing a Psychologist is the best step 1st. The driver of my vehicle is now reality and not fear and not pain. I did so many things trusting someone else and now, I trust the little I have learnt and feel it will keep on growing with experience and exposure to the truth on the human body mind and soul hence i will understand where the HIV and AIDS segment of my life fits in.So far therapy with the Psychologist is going very well and the end product i aim for is to undress the old me and wear a new me.

I am learning how magnificent our bodies are made, how when we do not comply to the basic principles of life we fall prey to illness. Life the greatest teacher, pain is the stamp on the certificate and rejecting fear is the graduation in to real living. I want to graduate for my own good hence for the good of others. Natural treatments for shingles made the difference that helped me see that no matter the said worst stage of aids i am said to be in I trust, some one to get me out, and that is the natural approach to reviving my body wholly, rather than partially and temporarily. Choose the slow road to recovery yet the accurate and complete recovery – never let fear and or pain drive your car, its a rough driver.